buffy died twice and was fine, though very, very depressed, so she took spike on a true ride. sometimes we make "bad" choices because we're processing really sad stuff. as long as we are taking care of ourselves in GENERAL, it's okay to slip up every once in a while. in the end, buffy "did amazing sweetie" and so will you
Why did I buy those cigarettes?
That's not how my mother raised me
You could say I've got a hole to fill
You could say I've got some time to kill
Why did I buy those cigarettes ?
Just like I've seen on TV
Blow out smoke in the dark and be moody
Isn't that how youths work out their problems?
Look at me I'm on a corner
Look at me, don't I look deeper?
Processing things in my head that you would never understand
Doesn't it look like I'm finally in a cool band?
The situation really isn't dire
There are hours, even days when I'm really okay
Sometimes I've gotta light a fire to
The garbage in my insides that made me this way
I'm trying to get better but first I've gotta get a little worse
I'm open to suggestions but so far this is the only thing that’s worked
So I'll murder fear with smoke and be on my way
A perfect recreation of an old movie star
Who doesn't give a fuck about the man she just killed with her car
What doesn't kill you only
Distracts you from what does